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Sighz... I just realised that how my actions were these days are not exactly setting a good example to anyone. I am nice but yet mean at the same time when pissed? Yes i've been patient for a long time and i admit, it hit my limit so i blew...But thinking about it...maybe i should have added more patience instead of keeping it to the limit? Worse thing is...im still feeling annoyed and pissed which i know i shouldnt....

Just got back from worship practise but feeling down... Its been so long since i felt this way...AFter reading dan's blog, i realised we're kinda going through the same thing but in different parts of the world. I really feel so disappointed with myself. God forgive those who sin against Him. If all of us want to follow him, we should forgive those who condemn us. Infact we should LOVE our ENEMIES and pray for them. I want to be different! I do not want to sink myself down to their level and be as childish. I guess i gotta be firm with my decision and try to be a better person.

I stopped gossiping as much as before (well..everyone gossips at least a little unintensionally or not) I dont backstab people but rather tell them straight forward as gentle as i can without hurting them....Bah..I want to be more active in church and serve more but due to personal reasons i cant..I guess i really just need guidance from God and a little motivation or something of that sort....As dan said in his blog post, while typing all this out..it kinda relieve those negative thoughts and make me feel slightly better :)

I hope tomorrow will be a better day than today :)