Count your blessings!

Happy chinese new year to all! May you get wealthy and have a prosperous year ahead!

I realised, we always whine and whine and whine about all the BAD things that had happen. Recently, from what's been going on, I've learned to count my blessings! For every bad thing that had happen, there's for sure a good thing that will over power that bad thing.

Its been cNy week. Everyone's busy collecting angpaos (apart from those who are currently overseas now!). Apart from that, I'm patiently waiting for my replies from the Uk universities that i'd applied to. So far, I gotten 3 replies. 1 conditional offer, 1 offer to do 1st year(considered a rejection) and 1 rejection. I was bumped that i didnt make it for the 2 at first but then i realised that most of my friends that applied, didnt pretty much get some of those unis they applied to as well and that i wasnt alone. This made me realised that although I've so far only gotten one out of 5 while 2 is pending..It's been a blessing! I thank God for this!

I believe He has blessed me my entire life up to today. As long as I have faith in Him and myself, I can do all things. Shall just hope for the best from the remaining two. Let God lead my life. If the 1st offer is where he wants me to go...I will go.

Sighz... I just realised that how my actions were these days are not exactly setting a good example to anyone. I am nice but yet mean at the same time when pissed? Yes i've been patient for a long time and i admit, it hit my limit so i blew...But thinking about it...maybe i should have added more patience instead of keeping it to the limit? Worse thing is...im still feeling annoyed and pissed which i know i shouldnt....

Just got back from worship practise but feeling down... Its been so long since i felt this way...AFter reading dan's blog, i realised we're kinda going through the same thing but in different parts of the world. I really feel so disappointed with myself. God forgive those who sin against Him. If all of us want to follow him, we should forgive those who condemn us. Infact we should LOVE our ENEMIES and pray for them. I want to be different! I do not want to sink myself down to their level and be as childish. I guess i gotta be firm with my decision and try to be a better person.

I stopped gossiping as much as before (well..everyone gossips at least a little unintensionally or not) I dont backstab people but rather tell them straight forward as gentle as i can without hurting them....Bah..I want to be more active in church and serve more but due to personal reasons i cant..I guess i really just need guidance from God and a little motivation or something of that sort....As dan said in his blog post, while typing all this out..it kinda relieve those negative thoughts and make me feel slightly better :)

I hope tomorrow will be a better day than today :)